Our very first photo...

5 weeks & 5 days old.

12 weeks...you've already gotten so big!

Playing peek-a-boo at 20 weeks

Colby & Corbin's 

Baby Shower

Our Baby Shower invitation

You two are getting so big in mommy's tummy!

 O'Brian helping mommy open some of our presents.

These are just some of the gifts we received. Our family & friends already love you both! 

The face of an angel

23 days before you were born!

Your Arrival!

Your First Halloween 2006

Aunt Pat holding mommy's lil' duck...

Aunt Brenda holding Colby (left) and BB holding Corbin (right) at our annual hayride.

Trick-or-treating is hard work!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Colby (right) & Corbin's (left) First Valentine's Day 2007. I woke them up early so they could get their gifts with their brothers and sister. I sat them both on the floor next to their musical dog that plays "You ain't nothing but a hound dog." They were both amazed! Neither of them had started to crawl, but as you can see in the third photo, Corbin was determined to check it out. He has that "I did it" smile on his face! This was the only Valentine's Day we had with Corbin. I'm so glad I have these photos to remember it by.

We love and miss you Tadpole!

Daddy, Mommy,

Christian, O'Brian, Madison, & Colby

Valentine's Day Supper at Church

These photos were taken two days before Corbin died at Mrs. Sara Jo's birthday dinner.  Our last photos...

Going home to see

Jesus today!

We'll see you

there soon!

With all of our Love!

Mommy, Daddy,

Christian, Madison, O'Brian & Colby

The night of the

Funeral Home

Corbin received over 100 flowers!  I wish I had taken pictures of the entire room to show how beautiful they were.  At a time like this you just can't think of all that needs to be done.

The day of the

funeral

Corbin's funeral was held at 2:00 in our home church of Oakey Swamp Baptist Church.  Every pew was taken, but I could not tell you ten people that were there.  To this day, I have still not watched the video of it.

This photo of the graveside was taken just before we arrived.  Corbin was buried at Happy Home Baptist Church cementary.

After everyone had left the graveside service, we were given the chance to come back and hold Corbin one last time before they buried him.  These are the last two photos taken of him.  I had to remember how delicate and special his hands and feet were because I knew I would never get to hold them again.

Since Corbin was laid in his crib at the funeral home and funeral, we had not even seen his casket.  We didn't want a mental picture of that to be our last memory.  After sitting and holding him, I just could not leave knowing that I had not tucked him in one last time.  I wrapped him snugly in the burgundy blanket he slept with every night and gently laid him down.  I tucked his Bible in his hands and kissed him one last time.

It doesn't matter to me he wasn't covered up with the little white blanket, trimmed in blue with his initials on it.  It doesn't matter to me that he had brand new socks to match his new outfit, but was buried with his regular play socks.  Nor does it matter that I can't even remember what his casket looked like.  What matters the most to me is that he died knowing that we loved him to the moon and back...

I miss you baby!

Love, Mommy

Easter 2007

Less than a month after we lost Corbin, we celebrated Colby's first Easter.

My Baby's Tombstone

We done something today that no parent should have to do...watch their child's tombstone be delivered. 

Making a decision on Corbin's tombstone was a very difficult for me.  I couldn't decide on the color or shape, I searched everywhere for the perfect thing to write on it.  I even went from graveyard to graveyard taking pictures and searching the internet.  I thought I would never find something perfect enough for my baby boy.  Several weeks' later Shannon & I agreed that this was it!

The footstone reads:

CTB

"Tadpole"

Son of Shannon & Heather Bell

Brother of Christian, O'Brian & Madison Bell

Twin Brother of Colby Bell

After his death, I began to feel so guilty because I could still be there and do things for my other children, but what could I do for Corbin now?  He surely didn't need me anymore!  I decided that at every occasion the family celebrated, he would too.  That's why I obsess about always having something on his grave.  I realize that Corbin is not really there, but his earthly body is.  Don't get me wrong, I love for something to be out there, but I don't get any satisfaction from being there myself.  In the beginning, I thought I would.  I thought when his tombstone was set up I would go and sit and just talk with him.  I realize some people can do that, but it's not for me. 

Colby & Corbin's

1st Birthday!

Corbin's gifts from family & friends

Your big brother Christian holding Colby at your birthday party

Our family & friends preparing their messages to send to you

You'll be getting them soon!

Our house for Colby's pool party

Corbin, you were still with us!

Photos of my baby boys

Colby & mommy at the party

Colby takes his first steps on his birthday!

Halloween 2007

Christmas 2007

Valentine's Day 2008

Happy 2nd Birthday

Colby & Corbin!

Corbin's Gifts from his friends & family.

Corbin's Birthday Cake

Given by Jake & Molly's Childrens Shop

Christmas 2008

Our Christmas card this year. 

I didn't like the thought of having a family photo without Corbin.  This way I could include him and also show everyone how big the other kids are getting! 

Corbin's Christmas

Valentine's Day 2009

Spring 2009